We usually have friends over at Dave and my house for Christmas Eve.. going on 4 or 5 years now. It's always been the same few people, but it expands a little every year. Everyone brings food, everyone brings beer or a bottle and we kick back & shoot the shit. This year was a little different in that it was the first year the entire band was here, and the first year we played.
Things get so busy that we get disconnected from people. It just seemed like the right opportunity because the people here were important to all of us, but a few are regarded as family to Dave and I. This being said, I was egging the guys on to get in the garage and hammer a couple out, but I'd never been so nervous - EVER. I put on my bass and actually trembled. I don't get nervous when we play live, but I guess because of these individuals involvement in our past and development, and the fact that they hadn't heard the new songs, and most importantly, that I value their opinion because they know their shit.. and with them being so close, they don't hesitate to tell us what they think. All the way through, I had massive butterfly swarms in my belly. Thinking back, I think it was all about electricity among all of us, and being in such an intimate setting, it was overwhelming. We played "New Sun Rising" and "APM 3" just to get the juices flowing, then broke into two new ones "First Strike" and "Rantings and Non-Hearings". Not really anything more to tell.. we played HARD, then went back inside to chill. Not much was said, but it didn't need to. Just smiles and tears... and oh, wait. Adrian said "this is a goddamn science lab in here." So Jared, Dave, Frank.. I don't know if you felt like playing or not, but thanks for doing that for me.
So Dave retreated to the desk in the garage at 8:30 last night for a couple of hours and penned lyrics for "Signs of a Storm". He asked me to put them up and share them with everyone. This is one of the songs we'll debut on the 14th.
----- SIGNS OF A STORM -----
Tears flowing on the inside // Each drop blisters the soul // At it's core // Bleed no more // A life forever scorned
Fears burning on the inside // Each thought weakens the mind // Deep within // The pain begins // And he just wants to grin
Looking past the disillusion // All that's left is confusion // Did you ignore the bitter truth // When you had the chance to walk on .... // Through
Treasures of life - framed glory // Inspire the pain within // To never end // Walls worn thin // A life forever singed
Jagged glass searing the flesh // Each wound burns with distrust // Deep inside // Cannot hide // And he controls your life
Walk on through // Walk on through // Walk on through // Walk on through // All these signs of a storm
Signs of a storm // Were so clearly defined // Too much to lose // Everything taken for granted
Walk on through signs of a storm
--Jen
